i remember buying this painting like it was only yesterday..
it was from a tatty and beautiful shop in Hastings, i was with my very good friend amanda
she was amazing
and tall and willowy
she had the best taste and was the queen of charity shops, farrow and ball paint and making do before it became so trendy, dull and over used..
she was a self employed gardener and had magic hands
i admired her hugely and was more than a little star struck by her natural grace and beauty and quiet humility
and she had a beautiful, feisty border terrier
really what was not to like?
i carried the painting under my arm for the rest of the day and proudly placed it on the wall of our tiny cottage which sat on a busy road in a large village..
i would look at that picture often and declared it to be my dream home..
a house in the middle of the country, remote, with land that i could fill with animals
and so 14 years passed and the picture remained on that wonky wall that we plastered, in that tiny cottage that we loved....
the cottage that kept us safe, that was often filled with friends eating and laughing, the place that was very much home...
and then on a whim we sold up and moved to follow the dream in that darn painting...
seven years later, two houses and countless animals and here we are..
supposedly for the last three years i have been living in my dream of dreams location - a stone house in the middle of a forest
turns out it is a dream spiked with nightmares
now we are leaving i can clearly see how utterly exhausted we both are, both at the end of our well travelled roads...
seven years of chasing dreams, building a house by the sea, saving many animals and really not a moment for ourselves to just stop and enjoy the places we have lived
the next part of my life will be based at home, with my family, where i began..
time to rest, regroup, heal, remember
time to be surrounded by the family i have been away from both physically and emotionally whilst i have been dream chasing...
its time to go home
however a brand new dream is gathering a little whirl in my thoughts but this time it will be closer to those that i love the most